do you know that im picking you? that in doing so im hurting myself?
i know things arent going to change. that im going to have to feel the same way as i did this time last year. i know that i will always be the fearful submissisve girl who never wanted to make you angry. even though you didnt have a problem, i would go out of my way just to make sure that not for a second you would feel uncomfortable.
i know that in doing so im going to have to get used to this crap feeling of not being enough. not pretty, skinny, smart, funny, interesting, everything. just not enough

you always make me do this. and you dont even understand or acknowledge what you do to me